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You have to listen to this adorable cover of Home.

 

I am here to report that we BOUGHT A HOUSE!

This has been a long time coming and if you follow me for awhile, you may have seen our house hunting horrors.  That post was more for fun, but really we did also have a lot of adventures along the way.

There were also house hunting heartbreaks and oh so many life lessons. As I sit here writing this and watch Renfield sleeping on his bed soundly in our living room, listening to John Denver on our Alexa (YAY I FINALLY HAVE FAST WIFI!) and listening to the wind outside, I realize it was all worth it.

It has a porch with a wraparound deck I am in love with, a pool, 6.7 acres, a garage with a pellet stove, built in bar and pool table, and even a heated dog house with a fenced area I can’t wait to fill with animals.

 

 

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Thanks to Etsy for my free awesome lamp. ❤

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I want to thank Mountainmama for her support always and for her visit today. Thanks for putting up with me for 27 years and teaching me your ways when it comes to making a home! ❤

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Thanks mommy for the card. Our favorite movie… ❤

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More to come on this journey….

 

 

Spring Fashion Inspiration

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I don’t know about you, but I’m definitely getting ready for some spring action here. (I say this as it snows outside)

 

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Last year we did our fashion spring inspiration post with Warby Parker.

 

2019 Spring Fashion Inspiration

Matching sets.

 

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Wicker Bags.

I just bought one and can’t wait!

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Spring and Summer, I’m waiting for ya.

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Long Skirts.

 

Asymmetrical skirts and Bell sleeves.

 

 

Wide Legged Pants.

 

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Obsessed.

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Skirts with Sweaters.

 

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Gingham.

 

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White Jeans and neutral colors.

 

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Spring Jumpsuits.

 

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Long dress, sneakers, and leather jacket.

 

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Capris.

 

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By the way… I am about to list a very cute pair of almost brand new white converse just like these on my Poshmark– stay tuned!

 

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Grid Pattern.

 

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I’ll be here waiting Spring…….

 

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Love and some verses

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I’m going to let you in on a little secret.

My first blog on Tumblr (and first blog ever) was called Love and some verses, named after the infamous Iron and Wine album. I still love this band so very much and listen to them just to calm myself down. They just have that effect on me and their lyrics give me goosebumps.

 

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Love is a dress that you made

Long to hide your knees

Love to say this to your face

I love you only

For your days and excitement

What will you keep for to wear?

Someday drawing you different

May I be weaved in your hair

Love and some verses you hear

Say what you can say

Love to say this in your ear

I’ll love you that way

From your changing contentment

What will you choose for to share?

Someday drawing you different

May I be weaved in your hair

 
 

I never kept up with it, of course, but I still loved the name and think about it from time to time.

Thinking about that little blog tonight, I got inspired to write.

To be honest with you readers, I have not been very inspired to blog lately.

I’m not sure why that is…but when I am not feeling it, I’m just not going to force it. Those posts always come off as insincere and scripted to me. I write from the heart- always have and always will.

 

 

With Valentine’s Day coming up, I wanted to share love and some verses with you all in this post.

I wrote about the book Carrie read in the Sex and the City movie “Love letters of Great men” in my Valentine post.  (Honestly this post makes me cringe and I need to fix it because this was clearly before I learned the important of centering text…)

I will be sharing some of these verses of love with you from this book.

 

Love and some verses…

 

” I love you. That is all I know. But all I know, too, is that I am writing into space: the kind of dreadful, unknown space I am just going to enter. I am going to Iowa, Illinois, Idaho, Indindiana, but these, though mis-spelt, *are* on the map. You are not. ”

-Dylan Thomas

 

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I am restless; and a man’s restlessness always means a woman; and my restlessness means Ellen. ”

 

-Unknown

 

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“ Forgive my many faults, and the many pains I have caused you.  How thoughtless and foolish I have oftentimes been!  How gladly would I wash out with my tears every little spot upon your happiness, and struggle with all the misfortune of this world, to shield you and my children from harm.  But I cannot.  I must watch you from the spirit land and hover near you, while you buffet the storms with your precious little freight, and wait with sad patience till we meet to part no more.”

 

                                                         

-Unknown

 
 
 

 

December 1795

” I awake full of you. Your image and the intoxication of last night give my senses no rest.

Sweet, incomparable Josephine, what a strange effect you have on my heart. Are you angry? Do I see you sad? Are you worried? My soul breaks with grief, and there is no rest for your lover; but how much the more when I yield to this passion that rules me and drink a burning flame from your lips and your heart? Oh! This night has shown me that your portrait is not you!

You leave at midday; in three hours I shall see you.

Meanwhile, my sweet love, a thousand kisses; but do not give me any, for they set my blood on fire. “

-Napoleon

 

 

” …I am at Port Maurice, near Ognelia; tomorrow I reach Albenga. The two armies are moving, trying to outwit each other. Victory to the cleverer. I am pleased with Beauliu; he maneuvers well and is stronger than his predecessor. I will beat him soundly, I hope. Don’t be frightened. Love me like your eyes; but that is not enough: like yourself, more than yourself, than your thoughts, your life, all of you. Forgive me, dear loe, I am raving; Nature is frail when one feels deeply, when one is loved by you…”

Bonaparte

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” Beware of everybody; trust no one; keep yourself in readiness, as soon as the moon is visible; I shall leave the hotel incognito, take a carriage or a chaise, we shall drive like the wind to Sheveningen; I shall take paper and ink with me; we shall write our letters.”

 

-Voltaire

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 ” …Though still in bed, my thoughts go out to you, my Immortal Beloved, now and then joyfully, then sadly, waiting to learn whether or not fate will hear us – I can live only wholly with you or not at all – Yes, I am resolved to wander so long away from you until I can fly to your arms and say that I am really at home with you, and can send my soul enwrapped in you into the land of spirit…”

“…Be calm – love me – today – yesterday – what tearful longings for you – you – you – my life – my all – farewell. Oh continue to love me – never misjudge the most faithful heart of your beloved.

ever thine
ever mine
 ever ours “

 

-Beethoven

 

 

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My mom and dad met on 1/ 6/ 86. My mom was 17 and Kevin was 22. Kevin was a bus driver in the city and my mom was riding the bus that day. His badge number was 554 ; little did she know how much that number would come to mean over the years. After his passing, she would see that number show up-on clocks, in random passings, possibly making no sense at all while also making the most sense in the world to her.

They had a December wedding ; my mom loved Christmas and still does. They had 2 daughters and a little brick home in Long Island. My mom was overjoyed to make that home ours and took pride making flea market finds into treasures we would have for many years to come.

The years ahead were not easy. People often said it was like the world was too much for Kevin. When I ask my mom to tell me about my dad, clinging to any semblance of knowing him at all, she tells me that he had particular ways about him. He would obsess over his hair or clothes. He was coping with his own mental health issues, along with his own childhood trauma, and was never supported through that growing up. If you want the perfect example of how much good old fashioned parental love can make or break a person, this is it. Kev struggled with his demons, self medicating along the way, until it got too far ahead of him for him to catch his own breath.

My mom did what was best for us. I was 2, my sister, 3. Unfortunately, the addictive lifestyle Kevin lead was ultimately what lead to his leaving us. The sad part is it was not even the addiction itself that did it, but a senseless act of someone else. My sister remembers more about him than I do and sometimes I stick to the 1 memory I have of him and my mom sitting at a kitchen table, because that is all that I have. I wish I could have known you, but for now I’ll watch you at the kitchen table and find meaning in your number when it calls to me ; 554.

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When I asked my mom to sum up the day they met for this post, she stated, “I stepped onto the bus on my way to school and fell in love.”

 

A new year’s letter to the universe…

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Dear last year,

 

You were really good to me. You showed me more of who I am, parts of me that I didn’t even know existed.

You showed me disappointments, in the form of losing houses we fell in love with and a career I thought was a dream. You showed me that you can do everything and anything for someone you work for (or this can be applied to a lot of things in life) but that in the end, sometimes things are just too good to be true for a reason. Sometimes you need to walk away when you realize that being in an environment where your absolute best is never good enough is detrimental to your mental health, happiness, and well being.

This year taught me to run like Forest Gump in those situations. Run at the first sign of a red flag. Your instincts are instilled in you for a reason…use them.

 

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But with these, you lead the way for me to even better paths. You made me aware of a strength I didn’t know I had when it comes to standing up for myself and knowing what I want and deserve.

Within you, 2018, I learned that it’s okay to just….need time. To decompress after these disappointments and disappear for awhile, if you need to.

I learned that “FOMO,” or “fear of missing out” is basically all in your head and I have gotten insanely good at appreciating what I have rather than comparing to others. We all feel bad with social media but I think it’s more about how you look at things. Like, seeing someone go on a beautiful vacation and feeling happy for them and also being like “that’s great and I would love to go there someday too- but after we buy our house! Because I have exciting things coming my way that are more important right now than traveling.” I also know myself well enough now to look at someone’s photos of being out and filtering my own thoughts-like thinking, wait, do I even want to be doing that right now? Actually no, I’m super happy being on my couch watching this movie with wine.

I learned that the hustle is real and you can damn well get anything that you want if you work hard enough. This means you don’t always listen to people who tell you that there’s no way you can travel while you are not working for 2 months (yup and I never did put up my Canada travel post- but I will!) or that you can’t possibly pay your bills through selling on Poshmark?! Watch me, yo.

 

 

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Dear new year,

Hey girl…heyyyyyy.

 

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I have to say, you are starting off with a bang!

 

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Please continue to teach me valuable lessons.

Please bring me a house I love with enough space for a chicken, pygmy goat, and another pupper. (or 2…?)

Please help me with discipline and consistency. This goes with all things: bullet journaling, blogging, Poshmark, gym,yoga, etc. 

Please allow me to finally actually learn the ukulele or guitar. (I see a theme here- again, consistency and discipline?!)

Please help me to continue stepping even further outside of my comfort zone.

 

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Currently in December + December Bullet Journal

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Hey everyone! Happy Holidays 🙂

 

It has been super busy lately between the holiday season, training for my new job, and the ongoing house hunt. I am feeling such an intense amount of gratitude lately. We have something in the works right now regarding a house, but I don’t even want to go into detail until it’s done- since we have been in too many situations lately where we were beat out on an offer, backed out, etc. The horrors of house hunting, am I right?!

 

 

 

Currently doing…

All of the Christmas things!

 

I am really enjoying every last second of the holiday season this year…I remember last year it didn’t feel like Christmas as much. Do you ever have a year like that?

Last weekend Frankie had off of work and we had the best holiday weekend filled with a Victorian stroll, a guided lantern tour of a historical home, and a winter bonfire with eggnog.

 

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But my favorite part of the stroll…

Was the Christmas goat. OMG!

 

Later that night we headed to a guided lantern tour at a historical home…the home is that of a famous Hudson Valley painter.

 

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Holiday parties…

 

We actually had 2 work holiday parties last week and I had so much fun at both!

 

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Fun fact…I ate all 4 of these in the car on the way home. Shoutout to Frankie for picking me up so I could have a few cocktails 😛  #Ineedtogotothegym

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This weekend my currently doing list includes: nothing. And it has been glorious. Today it is icing and sleeting outside and I plan on staying in and wrapping presents 🙂

Although I did make homemade pizza (mom even made the dough herself!) with mom last night. It turned out so amazing. Check out mama’s pizza recipe here!

 

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And I hung out with my favorite girls 🙂 Follow along with us on Instagram.

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Currently Wearing…

#Decemberoutfits

 

I’m going to apologize ahead of time for the terrible quality of these phone selfies. Also don’t judge me for the bathroom selfies…the bathrooms at work have great long mirrors!

My all time favorite outfit of the month goes to this Pinstripe jumpsuit find from Forever 21…complete with my Moon and wolf sweater. I got this moon sweater from Target, although it was quite awhile ago. They still have some pretty adorable sweaters right now, especially ugly holiday ones! P.S.-I have quite a few holiday sweaters (and other holiday attire) for sale right now on my Poshmark too.

 

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My holiday part look: Plaid leggings + Black denim overall dress

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Sorry for the grainy picture…The moon sweater makes an appearance again,  this flannel is also from Target (their new brand Wild Fable that I love) and has become my favorite ever, and these hounds tooth leggings from Zara are another favorite.

Currently watching…

 

All the Christmas movies!

Anything on Hallmark is good to me. Even the cheesy ones!

 

And…this show is hilarious and very binge worthy.

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The first season follows the aftermath of a costly high school prank that left 27 faculty cars vandalized with phallic images. Senior class clown Dylan Maxwell is accused of the crime by the school. He is expelled, but an investigation into the incident is launched by sophomore Peter Maldonado, with help from his friend Sam Ecklund, to uncover whether Dylan was the one truly behind the crime.

The second season follows Peter and Sam as they investigate a new crime at a Catholic private high school after their cafeteria’s lemonade is contaminated with laxatives by someone calling themselves “The Turd Burglar”.

 

Currently Bullet Journaling…

 

My December layout may be my favorite of all time.

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As you can see, I need to go to the gym, LOL.

 

 

 

 

 

 

November Gratitude

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The last 2 years I have done my November Gratitude weekly posts. This year has just been a bit crazier and my blog has been a little more sporadic. 😦

The good news is I am busy for amazing reasons and I have (what feels like) more than ever this year to be grateful for!

When considering what we are appreciative for every day, I think it’s important to think about the little and the big things.

 

Gratitude…

 

Small things like noticing the heart in the jam of the cookie you just baked…

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Simple Sundays spent baking with your mama, tidying your room to make it just a bit “cozier” and to prepare yourself to have a peaceful week, and a Saturday night spent in by the fire watching the classic Grinch and My Cousin Vinny (for the very first time!) with puppies snoring on top of you.

 

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Never forgetting to notice the beauty surrounding you

Or where you came from

Or where you have yet to go

 

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Gratitude for life’s seemingly twisted paths that lead you directly to where you are meant to be. 

Speaking of paths, I have so much gratitude for life’s weird ways lately.

 

A favorite guided meditation of mine is anything by Sarah Blondin.

I first found her on my Insight Timer app and have loved her ever since.

In this guided meditation,

She talks about following your inspiration and I can’t even tell you how many times I have listened to this lately. A lot. What I talked about above, these twisted paths of life, she normalizes it and writes it off as just another part of our story.  She emphasizes how important these vast experiences are. In this time in my life, when I have been transitioning a lot to try to find my way, this meditation is extremely comforting for me and I hope it helps you too.

Some words from this meditation that I especially love….

 

” If your inspiration requires you to stretch farther out of your skin than you are used to,

Please…do it.

It if requires you to get on a plane and never look back,

Please…do it.

If it requires you to sit and learn patience,

Please…do it.

If it requires you to quit your job, sell your belongings, move across country, buy a boat, walk up to a stranger, write for no reason, cry for no reason…

Please…do it.

I can’t urge you enough….do it.

 

You will always, without fail, land exactly, divinely…where you are meant to land.” 

 

I am feeling especially grateful lately that I have landed (and worked super hard for!) into a career at Etsy 

 

I have wanted to work somewhere creative for a long time and I feel like for awhile I wasn’t even aware of what I was searching for– but knew it was something more, (this explains all of the random classes I took, lol) and Etsy has all of the things I was missing.

 

 

 

Feeling extremely blessed and hoping they let me stay forever 😉

 

Thank you to my readers who stick by my blog ❤

 

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Some Spooky Art…

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Hey friends! Sorry I have been a bit MIA lately…

If you have followed me for awhile, you know this blog goes through ebbs and flows often…

I start a new amazing career opportunity on November 6th and am very excited and feeling extremely blessed. It’s with a very well known company with values, morals, and a mission I really respect and stand behind.  The benefits are amazing, the office is stunning, and they are dog friendly. YUP.

It’s pretty normal for me to come back from not blogging after a month with a spooky post. However, it’s also Halloween! So….it’s perfect.

 

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You know what’s also spooky, though?

 

Accepting less than you deserve

Selling yourself short and knowing you are capable of more than you are doing

But not even trying for fear of failure

Not letting yourself see the value of a good hard mistake

Comparing ourselves to others

Forgetting that we are one in a million

Not calling ourselves out when we need to

Misinterpreting other’s opinions of us for a solid definition of who we are

Swallowing that idea of us into our core being ; holding it there for way. too. long. 

Life tip

The only time it is every okay to wear someone else’s mask or personality is Halloween.

 

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