Love and some verses

Listening now…

I’m going to let you in on a little secret.

My first blog on Tumblr (and first blog ever) was called Love and some verses, named after the infamous Iron and Wine album. I still love this band so very much and listen to them just to calm myself down. They just have that effect on me and their lyrics give me goosebumps.

 

love and some verses.jpg

Love is a dress that you made

Long to hide your knees

Love to say this to your face

I love you only

For your days and excitement

What will you keep for to wear?

Someday drawing you different

May I be weaved in your hair

Love and some verses you hear

Say what you can say

Love to say this in your ear

I’ll love you that way

From your changing contentment

What will you choose for to share?

Someday drawing you different

May I be weaved in your hair

 
 

I never kept up with it, of course, but I still loved the name and think about it from time to time.

Thinking about that little blog tonight, I got inspired to write.

To be honest with you readers, I have not been very inspired to blog lately.

I’m not sure why that is…but when I am not feeling it, I’m just not going to force it. Those posts always come off as insincere and scripted to me. I write from the heart- always have and always will.

 

 

With Valentine’s Day coming up, I wanted to share love and some verses with you all in this post.

I wrote about the book Carrie read in the Sex and the City movie “Love letters of Great men” in my Valentine post.  (Honestly this post makes me cringe and I need to fix it because this was clearly before I learned the important of centering text…)

I will be sharing some of these verses of love with you from this book.

 

Love and some verses…

 

” I love you. That is all I know. But all I know, too, is that I am writing into space: the kind of dreadful, unknown space I am just going to enter. I am going to Iowa, Illinois, Idaho, Indindiana, but these, though mis-spelt, *are* on the map. You are not. ”

-Dylan Thomas

 

gay couple.jpg

 

I am restless; and a man’s restlessness always means a woman; and my restlessness means Ellen. ”

 

-Unknown

 

cute.jpg

 

 

“ Forgive my many faults, and the many pains I have caused you.  How thoughtless and foolish I have oftentimes been!  How gladly would I wash out with my tears every little spot upon your happiness, and struggle with all the misfortune of this world, to shield you and my children from harm.  But I cannot.  I must watch you from the spirit land and hover near you, while you buffet the storms with your precious little freight, and wait with sad patience till we meet to part no more.”

 

                                                         

-Unknown

 
 
 

 

December 1795

” I awake full of you. Your image and the intoxication of last night give my senses no rest.

Sweet, incomparable Josephine, what a strange effect you have on my heart. Are you angry? Do I see you sad? Are you worried? My soul breaks with grief, and there is no rest for your lover; but how much the more when I yield to this passion that rules me and drink a burning flame from your lips and your heart? Oh! This night has shown me that your portrait is not you!

You leave at midday; in three hours I shall see you.

Meanwhile, my sweet love, a thousand kisses; but do not give me any, for they set my blood on fire. “

-Napoleon

 

 

” …I am at Port Maurice, near Ognelia; tomorrow I reach Albenga. The two armies are moving, trying to outwit each other. Victory to the cleverer. I am pleased with Beauliu; he maneuvers well and is stronger than his predecessor. I will beat him soundly, I hope. Don’t be frightened. Love me like your eyes; but that is not enough: like yourself, more than yourself, than your thoughts, your life, all of you. Forgive me, dear loe, I am raving; Nature is frail when one feels deeply, when one is loved by you…”

Bonaparte

-Napoleon

 

 

” Beware of everybody; trust no one; keep yourself in readiness, as soon as the moon is visible; I shall leave the hotel incognito, take a carriage or a chaise, we shall drive like the wind to Sheveningen; I shall take paper and ink with me; we shall write our letters.”

 

-Voltaire

kiss

 

 

 ” …Though still in bed, my thoughts go out to you, my Immortal Beloved, now and then joyfully, then sadly, waiting to learn whether or not fate will hear us – I can live only wholly with you or not at all – Yes, I am resolved to wander so long away from you until I can fly to your arms and say that I am really at home with you, and can send my soul enwrapped in you into the land of spirit…”

“…Be calm – love me – today – yesterday – what tearful longings for you – you – you – my life – my all – farewell. Oh continue to love me – never misjudge the most faithful heart of your beloved.

ever thine
ever mine
 ever ours “

 

-Beethoven

 

 

mom and kev

 

My mom and dad met on 1/ 6/ 86. My mom was 17 and Kevin was 22. Kevin was a bus driver in the city and my mom was riding the bus that day. His badge number was 554 ; little did she know how much that number would come to mean over the years. After his passing, she would see that number show up-on clocks, in random passings, possibly making no sense at all while also making the most sense in the world to her.

They had a December wedding ; my mom loved Christmas and still does. They had 2 daughters and a little brick home in Long Island. My mom was overjoyed to make that home ours and took pride making flea market finds into treasures we would have for many years to come.

The years ahead were not easy. People often said it was like the world was too much for Kevin. When I ask my mom to tell me about my dad, clinging to any semblance of knowing him at all, she tells me that he had particular ways about him. He would obsess over his hair or clothes. He was coping with his own mental health issues, along with his own childhood trauma, and was never supported through that growing up. If you want the perfect example of how much good old fashioned parental love can make or break a person, this is it. Kev struggled with his demons, self medicating along the way, until it got too far ahead of him for him to catch his own breath.

My mom did what was best for us. I was 2, my sister, 3. Unfortunately, the addictive lifestyle Kevin lead was ultimately what lead to his leaving us. The sad part is it was not even the addiction itself that did it, but a senseless act of someone else. My sister remembers more about him than I do and sometimes I stick to the 1 memory I have of him and my mom sitting at a kitchen table, because that is all that I have. I wish I could have known you, but for now I’ll watch you at the kitchen table and find meaning in your number when it calls to me ; 554.

ever thine
ever mine
 ever ours

When I asked my mom to sum up the day they met for this post, she stated, “I stepped onto the bus on my way to school and fell in love.”

 

Advertisements

A new year’s letter to the universe…

Listening now…

 

 

old you.jpg

Dear last year,

 

You were really good to me. You showed me more of who I am, parts of me that I didn’t even know existed.

You showed me disappointments, in the form of losing houses we fell in love with and a career I thought was a dream. You showed me that you can do everything and anything for someone you work for (or this can be applied to a lot of things in life) but that in the end, sometimes things are just too good to be true for a reason. Sometimes you need to walk away when you realize that being in an environment where your absolute best is never good enough is detrimental to your mental health, happiness, and well being.

This year taught me to run like Forest Gump in those situations. Run at the first sign of a red flag. Your instincts are instilled in you for a reason…use them.

 

running

 

 

But with these, you lead the way for me to even better paths. You made me aware of a strength I didn’t know I had when it comes to standing up for myself and knowing what I want and deserve.

Within you, 2018, I learned that it’s okay to just….need time. To decompress after these disappointments and disappear for awhile, if you need to.

I learned that “FOMO,” or “fear of missing out” is basically all in your head and I have gotten insanely good at appreciating what I have rather than comparing to others. We all feel bad with social media but I think it’s more about how you look at things. Like, seeing someone go on a beautiful vacation and feeling happy for them and also being like “that’s great and I would love to go there someday too- but after we buy our house! Because I have exciting things coming my way that are more important right now than traveling.” I also know myself well enough now to look at someone’s photos of being out and filtering my own thoughts-like thinking, wait, do I even want to be doing that right now? Actually no, I’m super happy being on my couch watching this movie with wine.

I learned that the hustle is real and you can damn well get anything that you want if you work hard enough. This means you don’t always listen to people who tell you that there’s no way you can travel while you are not working for 2 months (yup and I never did put up my Canada travel post- but I will!) or that you can’t possibly pay your bills through selling on Poshmark?! Watch me, yo.

 

 

IMG_7328.JPG

 

Dear new year,

Hey girl…heyyyyyy.

 

us

 

I have to say, you are starting off with a bang!

 

waterfall.jpg

 

Please continue to teach me valuable lessons.

Please bring me a house I love with enough space for a chicken, pygmy goat, and another pupper. (or 2…?)

Please help me with discipline and consistency. This goes with all things: bullet journaling, blogging, Poshmark, gym,yoga, etc. 

Please allow me to finally actually learn the ukulele or guitar. (I see a theme here- again, consistency and discipline?!)

Please help me to continue stepping even further outside of my comfort zone.

 

who i am.jpg

img_7294

 

 

 

November Gratitude

Listening now…

 

 

pear.jpg

 

The last 2 years I have done my November Gratitude weekly posts. This year has just been a bit crazier and my blog has been a little more sporadic. 😦

The good news is I am busy for amazing reasons and I have (what feels like) more than ever this year to be grateful for!

When considering what we are appreciative for every day, I think it’s important to think about the little and the big things.

 

Gratitude…

 

Small things like noticing the heart in the jam of the cookie you just baked…

heart cookie.jpg

 

Simple Sundays spent baking with your mama, tidying your room to make it just a bit “cozier” and to prepare yourself to have a peaceful week, and a Saturday night spent in by the fire watching the classic Grinch and My Cousin Vinny (for the very first time!) with puppies snoring on top of you.

 

cookies.jpgpups.jpg

 

Never forgetting to notice the beauty surrounding you

Or where you came from

Or where you have yet to go

 

mtns.JPGfamily.jpgbridge.jpg

Gratitude for life’s seemingly twisted paths that lead you directly to where you are meant to be. 

Speaking of paths, I have so much gratitude for life’s weird ways lately.

 

A favorite guided meditation of mine is anything by Sarah Blondin.

I first found her on my Insight Timer app and have loved her ever since.

In this guided meditation,

She talks about following your inspiration and I can’t even tell you how many times I have listened to this lately. A lot. What I talked about above, these twisted paths of life, she normalizes it and writes it off as just another part of our story.  She emphasizes how important these vast experiences are. In this time in my life, when I have been transitioning a lot to try to find my way, this meditation is extremely comforting for me and I hope it helps you too.

Some words from this meditation that I especially love….

 

” If your inspiration requires you to stretch farther out of your skin than you are used to,

Please…do it.

It if requires you to get on a plane and never look back,

Please…do it.

If it requires you to sit and learn patience,

Please…do it.

If it requires you to quit your job, sell your belongings, move across country, buy a boat, walk up to a stranger, write for no reason, cry for no reason…

Please…do it.

I can’t urge you enough….do it.

 

You will always, without fail, land exactly, divinely…where you are meant to land.” 

 

I am feeling especially grateful lately that I have landed (and worked super hard for!) into a career at Etsy 

 

I have wanted to work somewhere creative for a long time and I feel like for awhile I wasn’t even aware of what I was searching for– but knew it was something more, (this explains all of the random classes I took, lol) and Etsy has all of the things I was missing.

 

 

 

Feeling extremely blessed and hoping they let me stay forever 😉

 

Thank you to my readers who stick by my blog ❤

 

❤ ❤ ❤

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Lessons from my Poshmark fall wardrobe

Listening now…

I have been through some life changes since my last blog post… more to come on that later. I will have a lot more time to blog (at least for now) and plan on getting back into the weekly blog swing of things. 

It’s fall! 

 

leaf emoji.jpg

 

My absolute favorite time of the year to blog about all things fashion related. 

Whether it’s a Fall Fashion Inspiration post, a Spooky shoot, I really love doing these. 

This time I thought I would do something a little different. 

While going through my photo shoot photos from the other night, I realized that our clothes can kind of….teach us something. 

 

We wear what we feel and we wear our hearts on our sleeves. 

 

In the mornings, we go through our closets and carefully choose how we want to portray to others that day, we wear Black to certain occasions, our friend tells us “wow, you have a lot of Black clothes!” while going through your closet-while you may have never noticed before. 

We speak as silently, or as loudly, as we want to the world with what we clothe our bodies with. 

 

Here are some lessons from my Poshmark fall wardrobe, which you can find here:

 

Be as humbly yourself as possible, but with attitude.

 

 

It’s perfectly okay to be quiet- if that’s who you are (me.) 

But never, ever, ever let people tell you who you should be, walk all over you, treat you less than you deserve. 

Remain yourself, but know when to step outside of this comfort zone when it comes to protecting your own values. 

Damn straight.

 

Keep it simple.

 

 

This means taking time to sit with yourself and learn patience through your process. 

Wake up in the morning, wipe the sleepy from your eyes and look up at the sun and how it has risen for you ; the way in which it has blessed and given you another minute, another hour, another day. 

For a minute quickly becomes days and months and years and if we don’t take the time to sit with it, really notice it and breathe it in, it will evaporate right before us.

 

And on it goes…keep it simple. 

 

Simple swing.gif

 

 

Daydream as often as you like.

Zara Dreamer Jacket    |  Express Dress ; Vintage boots

Play dress up with your life and try on as many varieties as you like.

Our choices were not meant to be taken so seriously… 

Do your very best and the universe will send rewards and gratification your way.

 

It’s okay to dress like Fiona and Frank from Shameless.

In fact, I encourage it. 

 

Fiona.jpgfiona frank.gifFrank blurry

Frank.jpg

But don’t be too much of a Frank…. #Shameless

 

Life lately…

Listening now…

Hey everyone! Are there any blog readers still out there? ….Hello?

This was a very unintentional and way too long blog break but I’m happy to be back! Life lately has pretty much hit me and made me as surprised as Molly is in this picture.

 

molly life.jpg

 

It’s been a busy summer with fun adventures involved. Here’s just some photos of a few things we have been doing.

 

 

 

The summer has been awesome & I hope you all are having a great one, too! We know it flies by and by the time we know it, it’s time for Halloween decorations and fall movies… which I am already excited for!!!

 

But the real reason I have been insanely busy is because I landed a new job!

I now work for Found My Animal

 

Our Mission

 

” Found My Animal promotes animal adoption in a very direct way: let your pet wear your values. By encouraging rescue over purchase, we support animal welfare by asking pets and their owners to help deliver our simple, important message. “

 

 

claude and henry.jpg

The owner’s adopted own- Claude & Henry.

If you have been reading for awhile, you may know that this is something I have wanted to do for a long time. Wanting to work for an animal rescue organization or company is a very specific goal and when I had actually started to think it was not going to happen for me, I saw this job and decided to give it a try. I’m so glad I did.

To work for a company like this is a dream! Part of my job is also community outreach- which will involve spreading the word about our company and even holding adoption events with dogs!

In addition to that, if you are interested in learning more about Found My Animal or even carrying us in your store, contact me! We love collaborating with new businesses and like-minded individuals supporting our mission.

 

 

The girls are definitely enjoying their Prismatic Ombre Adjustable leash

And they love being able to walk side by side!It has really helped Molly’s anxiety to go new places with Daisy walking on the leash next to her.

#Walkshandsfree #Walk2dogsatonce #Rainbowrope #Rainbowleash

 

And Molly feels amazing supporting a leash that supports rescuing animals, just like she was rescued almost a year ago by us. ❤

 

Molly

The day we found our animal. And she found us. #onherwayhome ❤

An excerpt from my blog post about Molly’s #foundmyanimal story…
We know she was left outside all day in the hot Tennessee weather.
We know that a woman had her and gave her up because she did not have patience with housebreaking her. Because you know, dogs take work and patience. But the love they give you back is ten fold and oh so worth it…
We know she is afraid of crates and wary of men coming near her but don’t know why.
We know she was afraid of water beating down of her because we (and her foster mom) suspect she may have been from a puppy mill.
We know that she is home now and we will never make her feel that way again.

 

mollwy

#Bettertogether

 

 

By the way, if you can help in any way with our Rescue Road Trip Go Fund Me  –

It would be so appreciated! We are trying to raise funds to organize a road trip down to Miami to transport dogs from high kill shelters up to shelters in the Hudson Valley in NY.

All funds donated will go directly to the following costs:

1. Adoption Fees to Miami Dade Animal Services
2. Van Costs, Insurance
3. Gas + Tolls
4. Vetting
5. Transport Driver

 

❤ ❤ ❤ ❤

Letters to the Universe { June }

Listening now…

 

I thought it was time for another Letters to the Universe post.

 

 

 

 

 

The universe has been very good to me lately. So I wanted to send out some letters and talk to it a bit.

 

Dear June, Thank you for the good and bad you brought me this month. June will always be the month papa passed away but it is also the month that papa came back as yellow butterflies surrounding us. (Seriously– they have been everywhere and I even found 2 beautiful yellow butterfly wings on the floor yesterday.) I find comfort knowing that not only is he breathing better than ever up there, but he is flying over us in protection and freedom. Mom had finished off papa’s garden that day and I think that was a sign that he knew we were honoring him.

papas lights

Sitting next to papa’s garden under his lights last night with a dear friend XOX

Dear July, How the hell did we get here? That means more than half our year is over already.  Is it true that the older you get the quicker the years pass by? Because I feel it already. Please slow down.

Dear timing,  I’m beginning to see why you do things in the order that you do. I feel like it is all lining up the way it is meant to and I thank you for being patient with me and teaching me that same patience.

Dear self, you are going through some big life changes right now and big opportunities (more on that later) This is something you have wished and worked hard for for a long time- work hard, but take care of yourself, and embrace every second of it. And it’s okay to have some fear- as long as you use it as motivation. I commend you for getting outside of your comfort zone over and over again even though it is really hard for you. You know you cannot grow in the same place.

feel the fear.jpg

Dear mind, stop thinking so much. If just for a minute. Or enough for me to sleep well again!  As Frankie says, “worrying is like a rocking chair- it gives you something to do but won’t get you anywhere.”

Dear Advil PM, thank you for being there for nights when I absolutely cannot take another night of not sleeping. (Not usually- but lately)  I know that’s not what you are there for, but I’m so happy to have you.

Dear my bullet journal,  thank you for being there for me when I need to organize my days and months and years. And my thoughts. Thank you for allowing me to create more mindfulness in my life.

Dear Molly, please stop hoarding my underwear in your bed when I am away and you miss me. It’s getting really weird and awkward…. but thanks for being my little weirdo with your quirky quirks- I feel you are the dog version of me. (Besides the weird underwear thing)

Dear summer and your little moments, you really snuck up on me this year but I especially love your night sounds, twinkly outside lights, and light bugs. In addition I really adore your swaying nighttime breezes, your hot and heavy sunshine basking onto my face at the lake, and your ability to really bring people together.

 

Dear Universe, We have a lot going on right now. But with the ups come the downs and without both, we may not know the beauty of the other. This balance is sometimes tough, but so needed in order to really truly appreciate life and all it’s craziness.

 

XOXOX

 

 

 

 

 

 

The Things My Papa Taught Me

Listening now…

 

 

papa 1.jpg

 

This was one of the hardest few days of my life. My papa, Christopher McDonagh, passed away on Monday night after a hell of a fight of 10 years with multiple lung illnesses. I have cried all of my tears out for the rest of my life- I am pretty sure of that. I sit here crying again while writing this post.

Papa was one of my favorite people ever in this whole world full of billions of people. I just went searching in my email for more pictures and found emails from him I never answered- greeting cards he sent me for every holiday, even the little ones, like Valentines Day. Papa was that kind of guy- he just wanted to let you know he loved you and was thinking of you.

Everyone that met my papa described him as an amazing guy, the best gentlemen you will ever meet, and just a kind hearted soul. Those were all true and so much more. Papa was the kind of man who taught you so much along the way without even trying.

 

I thought I would write some life lessons that I learned from my papa who really knew how to live life like no one else. 

 

The Things My Papa Taught me

 

You can have endless dreams in life and re-invent yourself as many times as you want. 

 

papa mowing.JPG

My papa served in the US Army, was a Good Humor man, UPS driver, Carpenter, Alaskan Pipeline worker, father, husband, grandfather, brother, Irish immigrant and U.S. citizen, and many other things I’m sure we never even knew. Everything he did he did it with pride and purpose.

 

“Slow down, you have more time than you think.”

 

papa filming .JPG

This is actually something he told my sister but when she told me it really stuck with me through him struggling and after his passing. When she asked for life advice he simply stated this. I can’t really think of better advice…

 

Family is by far the most important thing in life.

 

 

Papa left his family for 3 years to go work on the Alaskan Pipeline when times were tough and they really needed money. He always made sure to do things with us to keep us busy and having fun when we were little and would spend summers at nana and papa’s house. Papa would always lend a listening ear when you needed or a comforting word of advice.

 

Love is not always easy but it is so worth it.

 

 

 

Life is the most precious thing to us and it is damn worth fighting for.

 

80.jpg

 

Papa’s fight was 10 years long and he fought so hard in the most admirable way.

We love you so much papa and thank you for giving us so much wisdom. Please watch over us and continue to teach us even up there.

 

XOXOX

 

me and papa.JPG