Love and some verses

Listening now…

I’m going to let you in on a little secret.

My first blog on Tumblr (and first blog ever) was called Love and some verses, named after the infamous Iron and Wine album. I still love this band so very much and listen to them just to calm myself down. They just have that effect on me and their lyrics give me goosebumps.

 

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Love is a dress that you made

Long to hide your knees

Love to say this to your face

I love you only

For your days and excitement

What will you keep for to wear?

Someday drawing you different

May I be weaved in your hair

Love and some verses you hear

Say what you can say

Love to say this in your ear

I’ll love you that way

From your changing contentment

What will you choose for to share?

Someday drawing you different

May I be weaved in your hair

 
 

I never kept up with it, of course, but I still loved the name and think about it from time to time.

Thinking about that little blog tonight, I got inspired to write.

To be honest with you readers, I have not been very inspired to blog lately.

I’m not sure why that is…but when I am not feeling it, I’m just not going to force it. Those posts always come off as insincere and scripted to me. I write from the heart- always have and always will.

 

 

With Valentine’s Day coming up, I wanted to share love and some verses with you all in this post.

I wrote about the book Carrie read in the Sex and the City movie “Love letters of Great men” in my Valentine post.  (Honestly this post makes me cringe and I need to fix it because this was clearly before I learned the important of centering text…)

I will be sharing some of these verses of love with you from this book.

 

Love and some verses…

 

” I love you. That is all I know. But all I know, too, is that I am writing into space: the kind of dreadful, unknown space I am just going to enter. I am going to Iowa, Illinois, Idaho, Indindiana, but these, though mis-spelt, *are* on the map. You are not. ”

-Dylan Thomas

 

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I am restless; and a man’s restlessness always means a woman; and my restlessness means Ellen. ”

 

-Unknown

 

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“ Forgive my many faults, and the many pains I have caused you.  How thoughtless and foolish I have oftentimes been!  How gladly would I wash out with my tears every little spot upon your happiness, and struggle with all the misfortune of this world, to shield you and my children from harm.  But I cannot.  I must watch you from the spirit land and hover near you, while you buffet the storms with your precious little freight, and wait with sad patience till we meet to part no more.”

 

                                                         

-Unknown

 
 
 

 

December 1795

” I awake full of you. Your image and the intoxication of last night give my senses no rest.

Sweet, incomparable Josephine, what a strange effect you have on my heart. Are you angry? Do I see you sad? Are you worried? My soul breaks with grief, and there is no rest for your lover; but how much the more when I yield to this passion that rules me and drink a burning flame from your lips and your heart? Oh! This night has shown me that your portrait is not you!

You leave at midday; in three hours I shall see you.

Meanwhile, my sweet love, a thousand kisses; but do not give me any, for they set my blood on fire. “

-Napoleon

 

 

” …I am at Port Maurice, near Ognelia; tomorrow I reach Albenga. The two armies are moving, trying to outwit each other. Victory to the cleverer. I am pleased with Beauliu; he maneuvers well and is stronger than his predecessor. I will beat him soundly, I hope. Don’t be frightened. Love me like your eyes; but that is not enough: like yourself, more than yourself, than your thoughts, your life, all of you. Forgive me, dear loe, I am raving; Nature is frail when one feels deeply, when one is loved by you…”

Bonaparte

-Napoleon

 

 

” Beware of everybody; trust no one; keep yourself in readiness, as soon as the moon is visible; I shall leave the hotel incognito, take a carriage or a chaise, we shall drive like the wind to Sheveningen; I shall take paper and ink with me; we shall write our letters.”

 

-Voltaire

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 ” …Though still in bed, my thoughts go out to you, my Immortal Beloved, now and then joyfully, then sadly, waiting to learn whether or not fate will hear us – I can live only wholly with you or not at all – Yes, I am resolved to wander so long away from you until I can fly to your arms and say that I am really at home with you, and can send my soul enwrapped in you into the land of spirit…”

“…Be calm – love me – today – yesterday – what tearful longings for you – you – you – my life – my all – farewell. Oh continue to love me – never misjudge the most faithful heart of your beloved.

ever thine
ever mine
 ever ours “

 

-Beethoven

 

 

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My mom and dad met on 1/ 6/ 86. My mom was 17 and Kevin was 22. Kevin was a bus driver in the city and my mom was riding the bus that day. His badge number was 554 ; little did she know how much that number would come to mean over the years. After his passing, she would see that number show up-on clocks, in random passings, possibly making no sense at all while also making the most sense in the world to her.

They had a December wedding ; my mom loved Christmas and still does. They had 2 daughters and a little brick home in Long Island. My mom was overjoyed to make that home ours and took pride making flea market finds into treasures we would have for many years to come.

The years ahead were not easy. People often said it was like the world was too much for Kevin. When I ask my mom to tell me about my dad, clinging to any semblance of knowing him at all, she tells me that he had particular ways about him. He would obsess over his hair or clothes. He was coping with his own mental health issues, along with his own childhood trauma, and was never supported through that growing up. If you want the perfect example of how much good old fashioned parental love can make or break a person, this is it. Kev struggled with his demons, self medicating along the way, until it got too far ahead of him for him to catch his own breath.

My mom did what was best for us. I was 2, my sister, 3. Unfortunately, the addictive lifestyle Kevin lead was ultimately what lead to his leaving us. The sad part is it was not even the addiction itself that did it, but a senseless act of someone else. My sister remembers more about him than I do and sometimes I stick to the 1 memory I have of him and my mom sitting at a kitchen table, because that is all that I have. I wish I could have known you, but for now I’ll watch you at the kitchen table and find meaning in your number when it calls to me ; 554.

ever thine
ever mine
 ever ours

When I asked my mom to sum up the day they met for this post, she stated, “I stepped onto the bus on my way to school and fell in love.”

 

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Currently in February

Currently Listening….

 

 

 

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I hope everyone is having a fabulous February!

 

I can’t believe how much it’s flying by, then again, I feel like I always say that!

But really though…. when you are always busy, time flies by much faster, too.

And lately I feel like I am always grinding.  In a good way- I have been doing a lot of things to try to set up my future and just working hard in general at bettering myself.

 

It’s been awhile since I have written a Currently post. Looking back it’s been since October?! So here we go…

 

Currently Celebrating…

I offered to cook for Frankie for Valentines this year, but he opted that we go out. We had a wonderful night! I also got him some yummy bakery items. (which didn’t last very long)

 

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Currently doing…

 

School:

School is in full swing with my Graphic Design class. In addition to this, I am looking into applying to a Web Design & Programming degree program. (I used to sit for hours and code my Myspace layout back in the day and I loved that sh*t, so we’ll see if I love this too) I read that they do night and summer classes so am hoping to apply by the summer, take a class & see how I do/ if I like it and then go from there. I hope to do both Graphic & Web programs together. P.S. I know I am crazy.

BUT anything with web and design in my opinion is a really smart choice right now. (it will always be needed and web developers can make some really good money) And while I enjoy my job often, I am a case manager and you can’t really do that forever. I have been thinking hard and working hard on other ways to make money- even if it’s on the side for awhile until I make another profitable income from it.

 

 

Poshmark, Ebay, & Thrifting:

I have also been working really hard on my selling on Poshmark (sold 3 things so far and am almost at 3k followers- woohoo!) I sell on Ebay too! (Between both sites I have sold 4 things within the last 2 months, which I think is pretty good!) Remember my Thrift Haul & Poshmark post? I am cutting myself off from more thrifting at least until I make a marketable profit from the last thrift- which totaled $80.00.

 

 

 

House Hunting:

Frankie and I have been looking for a house on and off for about a year and a half. We are more serious about it now and have met with a mortgage company and will meet with the realtor next week. We have seen some houses with creepy basements (definitely on the do not want list) and we have gotten to know what we want and don’t want in a house.

 

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Keeping up with everything else….

I still work 40 hours a week and my job has gotten  a lot busier in the last 2 months (grateful for this though), I still go to the gym at least once a week- the past few weeks it’s been Zumba classes.  I have also been consistent the last 2 weeks with only having 1 coffee a day ( 2 on a really bad day,) drinking less alcohol/more tea, and meditating and journaling more. #Selfcare

Oh and the blog! And seeing friends when I can. Damn, that’s a lot when I really write it down..

 

 

Currently loving…

 

YLEO

 

Young Living Essential Oils.

Did you see my last post? Mom and I have been pretty obsessed with our Young Living Essential oil diffuser. Make sure if you decide to join our love & purchase one of your own, you use our member ID code in my last post!

 

Current Goals…

 

This goes along with my Currently Doing section but I have a few solid things I want to work on right now:

  • Maintain less coffee  & alcohol
  • Attend yoga 1 x a week in addition to the gym. This is harder right now with school, but just requires more planning with my homework schedule.
  • Keep meditating.
  • Work on Poshmark & Ebay for a few hours every week and up my sales.
  • Apply to Web Design program and register for a summer class.
  • Pay off debt & save money. I have been paying off my credit card bill little by little and now I just got a new medical bill.         Sigh.…adulting. 

 

 

Currently thinking about…

 

Travel!

This time last year we were planning our dream trip to Santorini, Greece. I can’t believe it’s almost been a year since we went.

This year because we are house hunting and saving we may just take a trip to Florida…Frankie has never been and nana and papa have a condo there we may be able to stay at.

I have really been dreaming about going to Thailand someday.  Anyone been?

 

What have you been currently up to?

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Spring fashion inspiration

Listening now….

 

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I don’t know what it was about my fall fashion inspiration post but it got 82 likes and people still somehow find it!

I also did a spring inspired fashion wish list post last year and some of the items I never managed to score, like the trench coat and the jumpsuit, so they may have to be added onto my spring wish list this year too.

 

So here’s a Spring fashion inspiration as I sit here on this Sunday looking out at the gloomy weather and wishing I was on a beach somewhere. Oh and waiting for Superbowl snacks….don’t care about football, but I do care about food. Daydreaming about food, beaches, and spring fashion, currently…

 

 

Once again, I look to Alexa Chung, the fashion queen, for inspiration. She can basically do no wrong.

 

Denim dresses.

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Flowy shirts, bell sleeves and loafers.

 

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I want these!

 

 

Ripped everything and fuzzy keychains on bags.

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Embroided Jeans.

Seriously…..how amazing are these?!!

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Dresses with sneakers.

 

 

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Fancy pants.

 

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Kate Spade spring bags.

(I wish I could afford these but look how cute!)

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What fashion are you looking forward to this spring?