A new year’s letter to the universe…

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Dear last year,

 

You were really good to me. You showed me more of who I am, parts of me that I didn’t even know existed.

You showed me disappointments, in the form of losing houses we fell in love with and a career I thought was a dream. You showed me that you can do everything and anything for someone you work for (or this can be applied to a lot of things in life) but that in the end, sometimes things are just too good to be true for a reason. Sometimes you need to walk away when you realize that being in an environment where your absolute best is never good enough is detrimental to your mental health, happiness, and well being.

This year taught me to run like Forest Gump in those situations. Run at the first sign of a red flag. Your instincts are instilled in you for a reason…use them.

 

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But with these, you lead the way for me to even better paths. You made me aware of a strength I didn’t know I had when it comes to standing up for myself and knowing what I want and deserve.

Within you, 2018, I learned that it’s okay to just….need time. To decompress after these disappointments and disappear for awhile, if you need to.

I learned that “FOMO,” or “fear of missing out” is basically all in your head and I have gotten insanely good at appreciating what I have rather than comparing to others. We all feel bad with social media but I think it’s more about how you look at things. Like, seeing someone go on a beautiful vacation and feeling happy for them and also being like “that’s great and I would love to go there someday too- but after we buy our house! Because I have exciting things coming my way that are more important right now than traveling.” I also know myself well enough now to look at someone’s photos of being out and filtering my own thoughts-like thinking, wait, do I even want to be doing that right now? Actually no, I’m super happy being on my couch watching this movie with wine.

I learned that the hustle is real and you can damn well get anything that you want if you work hard enough. This means you don’t always listen to people who tell you that there’s no way you can travel while you are not working for 2 months (yup and I never did put up my Canada travel post- but I will!) or that you can’t possibly pay your bills through selling on Poshmark?! Watch me, yo.

 

 

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Dear new year,

Hey girl…heyyyyyy.

 

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I have to say, you are starting off with a bang!

 

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Please continue to teach me valuable lessons.

Please bring me a house I love with enough space for a chicken, pygmy goat, and another pupper. (or 2…?)

Please help me with discipline and consistency. This goes with all things: bullet journaling, blogging, Poshmark, gym,yoga, etc. 

Please allow me to finally actually learn the ukulele or guitar. (I see a theme here- again, consistency and discipline?!)

Please help me to continue stepping even further outside of my comfort zone.

 

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#Monday motivation

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Happy Monday!

 

 

 

 

 

I am writing this post for motivation for you guys and for motivation for myself.

Honestly guys, today was just one of those “blah” days at work- lots of boring trainings online for a new program I am working for with my job.

A little uninspiring, to say the least.

I am trying not to let it get to me so instead….I blog. I will blog about inspiration when I am feeling uninspired and I will blog about motivation when I am feeling unmotivated.

 

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17 quotes for 2017

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I cannot believe it is 5 days until Christmas!

Here’s a picture from last year of my Lily girl rocking her reindeer look.

She basically lets us do anything to her she’s such a good sport! Lol…she’s basically a Christmas angel. Waiting for all of the Christmas cookies to drop. She lives for food.

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I have been a bit MIA from the blogging world lately and that is because I felt like I needed a little holiday break and the holidays get really busy for everyone! I am just going to try to indulge in as many Christmas movies, almond nog(SO good), gift wrapping, and holiday warmth as possible until Christmas is over!

Last year, I wrote this post talking about the meaning of the New Year’s song “Auld Lang Syne” and my tattoo of it. This was my last post of my first blogging year 🙂 Also- does anyone love the Sex and the city new years eve movie scene as much as I do?! When Carrie is rushing through the snowy city to be at Miranda’s side when she is upset…

I almost put the same song from the movie as I did in last year’s post in this one until I realized I already used it…I just love it so much!

This year I wanted to do something a little different and write 17 things for 2017. For this post, that was my only idea. I was not sure what the 17 would be of yet… then I thought. Quotes! I read so many quotes that just speak to me so much and that I can relate to so strongly. So, why not?

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(By the way- this is my absolute all time favorite movie. It’s so hard to pick 1 favorite movie, but for me, this is it. It is a must watch if you have not seen it…please!)

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What is your favorite quote?

Spring goals

Listening to: birds, neighbor dog barking, people outside, up and about..

 

It sure is! Spring time is like a new beginning-

A chance for us to bloom where we are planted.

After all, the grass is greener where you water it. 

“Your mind is a garden, your thoughts are the seeds. You can grow flowers or you can grow weeds.”

 

So I have some Spring goals.  I usually do monthly goal posts, but hey- I’m a little late on that one, it’s already almost mid March!

 

  1. Play outside

This one’s obvious but yes!-

Getting outside after the winter when you can smell spring in the air, that just rained on the dirt type of aroma all around us that I wish I could bottle up.

A few weekends ago when we had one of our first really warm days, I helped mama in the garden  and the other day we reached 80 degrees up here in NY and I got to visit the lighthouse!

 

So far so good on this goal. But I really want to:

snail.jpg Do more hikes

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snail Run once a week at the park with my pup- I’ve been good on my gym goal of going once a week consistently, but I want to add another day every week of outdoor exercise

snailGarden more with mom- it is a different kind of therapy altogether getting your hands in the dirt and planting

snail Have a picnic and spring camp

snail Buy a kayak- being on the water is one of my absolute favorite things to do

 

 

2. Meditate outside

 

Meditation has fallen out of my self care and routine for awhile now. It’s crazy how we know things are good for us, yet we fail to do them, right?

When I do meditate, my favorite sounds to listen to are crickets [mom calls them night peepers] and water sounds. I  usually have to find them online out of season, but meditating outside- you have all of those sounds actually around you.

 

 

3. Begin planning again

 

You may know that I love planning– but I have recently fallen off of my planning game, too.

Mostly because I started using my happy planner solely for work and believe it or not, the stickers got distracting for me… probably because I completely went a bit, well, crazy.

I want a separate planner for my personal planning where I can go crazy with stickers, since my personal planner won’t be as full of events/things to do as my work one gets.

Planning out my days helps me keep to a routine and helps keep me balanced. 

I have been lusting hard  over an Erin Condren planner for quite some time now.

 

Particularly, this one:

 

How perfect for spring and summer- well actually you can’t go wrong with seahorses any time of the year. It just makes me happy to look at it.

They are 20 percent off right now on the site… so I may have to take the plunge.

Then I can deck it out with stickers, washi tape, etc. as much as I want to :- )

 

 

What goals do you have for this spring?

 

 

 

 

 

 

Balance, baby

My sister posted this article today. The link is below, so before you read this, go read that!

Passion article- Mark Manson

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It spoke to me right away because I have had the exact feelings that he talks about:

“The issue here is, once again, expectations. If you think you’re supposed to be working 70-hour work weeks and sleeping in your office like Steve Jobs and loving every second of it, you’ve been watching too many shitty movies. If you think you’re supposed to wake up every single day dancing out of your pajamas because you get to go to work, then you’ve been drinking the Kool-Aid. Life doesn’t work like that. It’s just unrealistic. There’s a thing most of us need called balance.”

Let’s start from the beginning.

I graduated college May 2014 with a sociology degree and a concentration in human services. I have never been the kind of person that knew they wanted to be a certain thing since they were little. I changed my major multiple times and kind of just rolled into sociology and as soon as I graduated, considered going back to school for something else.

I worked really hard the summer after college but I also made sure to travel and have fun- I road tripped down south and had the best summer. I scored a job as a youth employment case manager for a local nonprofit in august after I graduated. I started my job and wasn’t sure what to think at first- In the first few months, I did not have a lot to do and not many clients- my job is a very self-motivated job. If you want people to help and work with, you have to do outreach and go out and find them. Once you have the people to work with and help find jobs, the job gets more exciting- much of it is out in the community finding local businesses to offer people internships.

When I first started this job, and it wasn’t exactly what I had thought or expected, I was not happy- so my focus became finding the next thing to make me happy- the next job, the next field. I was not living in the present and always focusing on my future- whether this was researching potential careers, schools, or jobs. (This is crazy now that I look back to think that I was about to switch fields after trying out one job after college graduation!?)

I realized that I was driving myself crazy- living every day waiting for the next “thing,” and not even knowing what that was- searching for it, really, became exhausting. I had given myself anxiety with my own thoughts and questions of the future, without even knowing it.

I had a different blog post planned for tonight, but felt inspired reading this- because I have been through the same thing. I noticed something: as soon as I stopped obsessing about the next thing, about my future, about what am I doing right now and is this really my forever thing- I enjoyed my job more, put more of myself into it, and started to feel more passion about it. I am a strong believer that you can find a passion in almost anything if you work hard enough at it and like Mark said, create that balance between work and life. That’s another thing that improved more for me in that time- I made more time for friends and other things outside of work.

I still don’t know what I’m doing, but like Mark said, that is kind of the beauty in it! I have an idea, but I have many ideas. I already know that I won’t be a one career forever kind of person- just because you majored in something, does not mean that that will be the majority of your life. I want to work in an animal sanctuary/nonprofits, mental health nonprofits, be a photographer and a blogger. I am determined to find a way to integrate all of these things together in some way, but I’m also not going to obsess over it- I’m going to let them find me.  Whatever happens, happens. And if I am working hard, I will be passionate and it will be a success.

Things that I changed to make myself happier in the present (while still not            knowing what I am doing!):

  • Thinking about every day things to be grateful about- writing them down and journaling. This can be something as simple as “my favorite coffee shop had a new coffee flavor I love” or “I went to dinner with my friend!”- Writing it down makes you realize every day is different and makes you focus on the positives.
  • Being happy where you are- notice the great things about your job-for me it was the flexibility, getting to be out and about, getting to be creative, problem solving at times, and helping people. There is a reason you are where you are at this time and something led you to that- so go with it and throw yourself in.
  • Accept your bad days, get a cup of coffee or tea or a wine later and move on. Tomorrow is another day, you are only human, and no one has it all figured out!
  • I think the biggest thing that I figured out is that you can do it all. And if you want to and have enough drive, you will.

dreams dreams adult

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